Synchronizing My Heartbeats with God's

Came to realize that a lot of times, I've been lenient to myself. When my heart needs to be softened, I hold on and resist it. When my heart needs to be hardened, the other part of me just relents and refuses to cooperate. Yet I know that sometimes, things just need to be done. God I pray that you harden and soften my heart accordingly. Synchronize my heartbeats with yours, and let me live for your glory.