I reached another crossroad in my life. Multiple outcomes can result from my decision, but everything will, as always, be part of God's bigger story of my life.
Scenario 1: I get a job, I stay in the US.
Scenario 2: I get a job, I choose to leave the US.
Scenario 3: I don't get a job, I have to leave the US.
It takes a lot of effort to discern what God is calling me to do, and even more to actually do it. I don't want to waste my 2017, just like how I don't want any of the years in my life to pass without leaving behind something significant. In 2017, I want to pursue an intimate relationship with God. I want to experience how life can be so much more liberating and joyful when I surrender and seek guidance from Him who provides and has everything in control.
If scenario 1 happens, I want to be discipled. I want to grow in my pro-activeness in serving and loving the people around me. If I see needs in the lives around me, I pray that God will give me a compassionate heart to reach out and meet those needs.
If scenario 2 happens, I want to be bold in my steps. I want to experience how boldness and trust in His unfailing provisions can lead to a life of success determined by the fruits that this tree in my life can bear. Lord, please help me to trust that your faithfulness in the past can only be more in the future.
If scenario 3 happens, it's probably because of my lack of pro-activeness and boldness to achieve scenario 2. This will mean I need a lot more prayers and wisdom because it's no longer my actions that determine the outcomes, but I am giving reactions to outcomes that I cannot control.
I pray that 2017 will be a year of growth in my faith and my relationship with God, and a year of bold steps because God is in control.
