The Most Epic Week of My Uni Life

The supposedly busiest week of my university life so far is finally over. With the American Indulgence Fiesta (AIF) going on, everything seemed to be so hectic. AIF consists of the American Got Talent (AGT), class parade, Halloween night / Costume Party, dodgeball and basketball competition, and lastly, the closing ceremony on Monday night next week. Dressed up as Wolverine for class parade because the theme of my class was X-Men. Almost everyone couldn't recognize me..haha. Joined dodgeball competition, and it turned out to be quite fun. Had a lot of quizzes, endless assignments, and countless presentations at the same time. Really fagged out by all the work. But thank God, everything went well. Next week will be equally busy. Will be having an oral progress report presentation for a research paper, a persuasive speech, an American holiday presentation, an ethics presentation, one quiz and one test. Going to be a long, tiring week. Sigh... After this semester I will really be so, so free. Looking forward to next sem.

Some pictures taken throughout the week =)

Also, I will be joining a trip to Pangkor Island at the end of this semester. After that I will move up to the north to visit some places. Really hope that the trip will go well, please...

I AM BACK.

And..I am back, to this little, cute hostel of mine. A pile of assignments tower over me, waiting to be done. Sigh, kind of tired. A week of holiday gone, just like that. Regrettably, I did nothing beneficial during my holiday. Maybe I did finish some assignments, but still... I guess the only thing that can comfort me is that I spent a lot of time watching the sky, the clouds, and the sunset. Now I am missing my hometown. Resolved to change back to a good student after the holiday. Had been fooling around for quite a few months. I shall hold on to my resolution. I AM BACK.

Of Sun, Clouds and God

And so I reached Sibu. The instant I stepped onto this piece of memory-evoking land, I looked up and breathed in the beauty of the sky of my hometown. I was mesmerized His creations. So great, and so beautiful. Promised myself to take a picture of the sky every single day. And I kept the promise. Every day, the sky is so different. I mean, the clouds. And just now as my mum asked me to drink a big mug of green bean sup, I took a chair and sat by the balcony. I stared at the sky for 10 minutes, taking in all the details, how the clouds changed shapes, how the birds flew, and etc. Then I realized, the sun was shaded by some dark clouds. It was about to rained, I thought. The wind was blowing strongly against my face. Such a nice feeling to experience. Then out of a sudden I felt a sense of warm, and I looked up to find myself under the full glare of the burning sun. The clouds had been blown away. I was amazed by the unexpected change, and it suddenly struck me how similar this is compared to our lives. I mean, there are times in our life, when we are really, really down. And we sulk and think, why is everybody's life better than mine? Why, why is God so unfair to me? But think of it this way. And try to recall. Every time when we are down, don't we manage to pull it through? Every time when we are helpless, aren't there friends and family members to support us? We should never ever give up, no matter what happens, because there are always people who will stand by us. There are always people who will back us up. And above all, there is a God who knows what is best for us. He leads, and He never fails. He moves away our burdens, just like how He moves away the clouds from the sun. And He warms us, like how the sun warmed me. I give thanks, because I have my faith in a great, great God, a God who never, ever let me down.

Hostel Alone

Lying alone, on my bed in hostel. Somehow my body is radiating heat. Fever I guess, but I don't feel any headache effect. Thank God for that. Have been a while since I can lie down and reflect on the things that have taken place recently. Too many things in a month, I would say. How I wish my bed can transform into a field of soft, fluffy grass. With my earphones plugged in and the R&B music playing, maybe I can forget about the misery and hold on to the parts with even a single tinge of joy. Life has not been easy. It will never be. But as my friend has once said, and with my own correction, with love, nothing is impossible. Tomorrow I will see her again, and one or two hours after that, I will be with my lovely parents. A week of break, for assignments and catch up. Not too long, nor too short. A time for God; a time for contemplation; a time for interaction. And congrats to her on admission into UCLA. Really feel glad for her. Also, seems like her ex-boyfriend is fine, from what I have interpreted from his facebook wall. Life goes on, indeed... Feel sorry for Japan though, with the 8.9-magnitude earthquake and 10-meter Tsunami. Really need to give thanks for being alive, for living in Malaysia, and for having so many nice people around me. Thanks a lot...

Tangled Up

Have been tangled up with a girl for quite some time, a girl with a boyfriend. Initially, I was listening to her about the problems between her boyfriend and her. Ironically, I got closer and closer to her and ended up stepping in between them. First time ever I got so close to a girl, and a pretty and nice girl she is. To cut the story short(because I wouldn't want to tell the whole story here), she decided to break up with her boyfriend. Part of me was, and still is, against her decision, because I do not want her boyfriend to be sad. But my heart is telling me not to let her go. I guess sometimes things are just not meant to be. Too much has happened yesterday. And the sweet memory will never ever fade out of my mind. But with the chime of the 12 o'clock, things seem to change 180 degree. Sigh...came to a conclusion. Whatever decision she make, I will respect it. I wouldn't want to build my happiness on others' sorrow. And I am just writing this as a part of my diary, not with the intention of letting the whole world know. Of course, there are still a lot of things inside my heart. Better not blurt them out here, since that girl is the only person that I have given this link to for the time being. Just a reflection. Nothing more. Things will be better tomorrow...I hope.

Into Pondering

The feeling after a series of exam is kind of awesome. Atmosphere in the class has changed into a sort of exuberant state. With nothing much to do(actually have a tall pile of assignments waiting), a feeling of lost starts to take over. What to do next, and where to go after this. Sigh, I guess there are a lot of things that I would like to get involved in, and too many things that I wish could be mine. But I never dare to make the move. Have been challenging myself to do things out of my comfort zone, out of the circle of my ability. Since I was already born into this world, why don't I try something worth remembering, something novel? Promised myself to accept all the challenges that people throw at me. Now I am wondering whether I will be able to keep that promise. One day in the many years to come, if I turn back and look down at the tiny footsteps trailing behind me, what will I say? How will I feel? Regrets? I hope not.

Of Sky and Clouds

I forgot since when I love the sky so much. Have been noticing the beauties of the sky and the clouds lately. Maybe the way they transform are so similar to the way my life changes. Unexpected, random. Amazingly, I found someone who loves the sky as much as I do. Someone really special. I just hope that my life can be as free willing as the ways the clouds float on the sky. Zero resistance. One day, I am going to watch the sunrise and the sunset by the beach, or up on top of a peaceful mountain. That has been my dream for quite some time. I guess I am not so much into a successful life, but rather a serene one. I want to live as a free soul, so free that maybe one day, I can fly up to the sky...

Past, Present, and Future

I have spent 18 years of my life in different places at different times. And due to the randomness of the events that have taken place around me since I was born, I doubt that I will be able to recall them all and post on this blog. So, I have come to a decision that I will just write about the present and the future, and maybe a little bit of the past now and then. One day, I might have the urge to write a full summary of my childhood and my teen years, about how I have spent my first 18 years of life fooling around and ending up with who I am today. Looking forward to that day...

5th of March 2011

And I started this blog. Have been thinking about this for quite some time. People say that blogging is fun. But I just want to keep this as something like a diary. Years later maybe I will read this post, and see how my life has changed as time flashes by. So yeap, my life of blogging starts here...