Of the Sky, Again

Found my interest in taking the pictures of the sky, decreasing. Maybe I have seen too many versions of beautiful skies, until an extent that when the sky is looking ordinary, taking pictures of it becomes boring to me. Plus the fact that it has been raining a lot lately, there are not many days when the sky is clear and the sun is bright. Sigh..sunset oh sunset...

Finding something interesting to do. If possible, something not associated with laptops. Have been in touch with laptops too much. Feel like driving to somewhere far. But there is no people to accompany me. Driving alone to a faraway place can be boring sometimes. Can someone teach me what to do to fill my free time? I am tired of writing essays. Really tired.

I feel like playing badminton. But again, there is no one to play with. Futsal? No news. Sigh..is there anything I can do apart from dota, essays, photos, and limteh? Maybe I really should go and make myself a kite.

What's wrong?

Woke up late. Planned to go for breakfast with my eldest sister and mum, but my mum rejected the offer. She said something like, "The places that you all go, I don't want to go." What's wrong? Come on, I don't understand. My eldest sister pissed me off by saying, "Aiya, we just go by ourselves la.." I was like, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? What about your mum?

In the end I didn't go. My sister called my dad and asked him to buy some food home for her to eat. My dad asked her what she wanted to eat. She said something like, "我不要吃炒面， 炒米粉， 炒果条，哥罗面。如果你打包鸡饭， 那个饭一定要是鸡饭，而且要叫他拿辣椒汁。” Again, WHAT"S WRONG WITH YOU?! I am impressed with my father's patience so far. My eldest sister is acting like a boss at home. I know you are a doctor, so what? I know you are tired of working, I can understand that, so what? Who do you think you are? One day I am really going to scold you in your face. I hope on that day you will wake up to realize that life is much more than you think.

Confused

Have been in a state of blur. Promised myself to wake up early so that I can make the most out of every day. Failed. Promised myself to find something meaningful to do when I am enjoying my holiday. Failed. Promised myself to settle my university application as soon as possible. Failed. Promised myself not to play too much dota. Failed. Promised myself to stop wasting time. Failed. Total failure =.= !!!

Didn't promise myself to go into photography. I did. Didn't promise myself to exercise so much. I did. Didn't promise myself to think so much about life. I was forced to by the universities' essays. Didn't promise myself to blog much. I didn't, but I will.

Promise myself to focus on some of the things in my life. Gonna really focus. FOCUS!!!