Of Photography, Engineering and Confusion.

I love taking photos. Maybe it's because of my dad. Maybe, just maybe, being born into a house with lots of photography equipment sparked my interest in photography. When I was just a small kid I played with DSLR. But I didn't really know a lot about it. I was just, seriously, fooling around with it. Now, my interest is growing. But somehow I know I can't really go into this field. I am an engineer-to-be. I have to study. And photography needs time. A huge amount of time. And I can't afford that. Sigh. Sometimes I think I have too many interests. Sometimes I wish I can be a great surgeon. One that can play with the surgical blades like how I can play with the steering wheel. Sometimes I wish I can be a scientist. Then I wouldn't have to follow instructions and I can invent my own things. Sometimes I wish I can be a philosopher. Then I can crap non-stop and I don't have to do anything. Alas, this world is really unfathomable. Nothing is easy; but nothing is impossible. For the time being, I shall just remain who I am.

Speed of Light

Time passes faster than the speed of light. It scares me when I realize that it has been more than a month since I came back. So fast. Like a thief sneaking pass. I have not done much. As expected. Sigh. 20 more days and my holiday will end. Hope I can accomplish what I want to in the first place. Gonna play futsal this afternoon. My right ankle still hurts. Has been a year since I injured myself. Wondering what is wrong with it. And there will be a total lunar eclipse tonight. Hope the sky will be clear and I can snap some pictures :)

Christmas

Again. Christmas is drawing near. Gonna be the last Christmas that I will have in my hometown for the next three or more years. Seriously gonna miss the epic round town procession and the thick Christmas atmosphere in Sibu. I should go and join the procession for the last time. One last time before I fly. Time really slips without me realizing it.

Okay this is irrelevant. Often I think a lot about life. But I seldom try to put it in words. The most that I do is to use a few words to summarize my thoughts and post it on facebook. And results in people thinking that I am an "emo" person. No I'm not. I am just giving people "a piece of my mind". Maybe that piece is too small for them to understand the whole picture. Maybe it's time for me to write it out. Maybe I can try to be different, despite how insignificant I am. Maybe it's time to let go, despite how hard it is. Maybe it's time to pick it up, despite how ridiculous it might seem. Maybe it's time to forget everything, and focus on the true meaning of Christmas - Jesus Christ.

This post is so random. It blurs myself.